with shrooms i understand the fivolity and stupidness of clubing, I gain a better understanding of language and a understanding of self, everthing is and is is what it is theres no need to try and undersand it. Its a shame the feelings leave me with the images. shrooms are so much more than seeing things.

with weed, yeah theres the giggles and stupid behaviour, but its also easier to undersand and learn things, because its harder to get bored, having the smallest spliff before an essay helps research because the most boring things become vaguely interesting. You find your self going out of your way to learn more about things, and learn around the subject and get really into it BUT it does kill your abilty to write it all down in a coherant essay.

With pills, everything is amazing, you have never ever felt happyness like it its like being a child but then you just hate yourself the next day (used up all the ceretion in your brain how can you feel good)

and coke, it lets you say what your really feeling with out caring about the other person… and if your as sensitive as me, and worry how what you say will affect others it is kinda liberating

alchol just turns everyone into a dickhead.

but unlike most drug users i understand its probably why i dont often feel like i have no real friends because alot of them i have made on drugs what if they dont like me as me. me as me is boring and not all that gifted or original than anyone else. I hate myself more, I Brake the law every day because I like to dabble in drugs, i forget alot more than i should and have huge mood swings.

And you know what so what if people think that you need to take them to getter better understanding of things. Drugs change you they make everything grey and maybe thats the last thing everyone needs even if they have been the trigger to produce amazing artwork and music a black and white world would be easier and I miss it.